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Rudimentary

It’s like being in a swimming pool
When you don’t know how to swim
You realise the breathing first
Evidently heavy and difficult.

The concentration shifts
From the tears in your eyes
To the cravings of your lungs
And you sniff your nose 
To the familiar smell
Of choking on your tears.

The emotions have broken apart
Revealing the raw physical being
An animal being preyed upon.

A face hard to recognise
In its least convoluted state
With eyes open in disbelief 
And streams flowing down
From the eyes and the nose
In an effortless pace.

The socially conscious, problem-solving
Attention seeking human breaks open
To this rudimentary stage of evolution
Where reasons are not sought
Instead, all that is wanted for peace
Is to be able to fall asleep.

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